poner riquezas en mi pensamiento: June 2010

All the chistles I've dulled carving idols of stone
That have crumbled like sand 'neath the waves.
I've recklessly built all my dreams in the sand just to watch, them all wash away.

Through another day, another trial, another chance to reconcile
To one who sees past all I see.
And reaching out my weary hand I pray that you'd understand
You're the only one who's faithful to me.

All the pennies I've wasted in my wishing well
I have thrown like stones to the sea.
I have cast my lots, dropped my guard, searched aimlessly for a faith
To be faithful to me.

Through another day, another trial, another chance to reconcile
To one who sees past all I see.
And reaching out my weary hand I pray that you'd understand
You're the only one who's faithful to me.
You're the only one who's faithful to me.

Faltan dos semanas

Faltan dos semanas.

Two weeks left.

I know that I say this every single time, but I really can't believe that I'll be leaving in two weeks. So classes ended this past week and now we enter into two weeks of exams. I have my lit exam on Thursday the 1st and my music exam on Tuesday the 6th. Then I'll be flying back to Boston on the 11th. Which also happens to be the last day of the World Cup. I wonder who will be playing? I'm watching the Argentina-Mexico game right now and hoping that Mexico can pull it off. We'll see. I can just imagine the kids down at la Casa gathered in the TV room watching the game right now! I wish I was there with them!!

Last week was fun! On Tuesday Amelia and I went out for lunch with Nora and Gera - two girls from CBU. We ate at Crepes & Waffles. So delicious. After eating I walked back to la Católica with Amelia and Gera. Amelia had class so Gera and I went to the CBU prayer meeting. It was really good, we actually had some discussion. Which is exactly what I feel like I've been lacking recently - talking about and discussing issues of faith with other believers. So that was good. Then after Amelia's class we went back to my house and made brownies!! With the baker's chocolate that my mommy sent down in my package. We doubled the batch so that I could have one pan for my family and one pan for CBU on Thursday. On the ones for CBU we melted peppermint patties. It took a lot of self control not to eat them all before Thursday. So then we had our last CBU meeting of the semester on Thursday. We played a bunch of silly games, ate some food and just hung out. It was a lot of fun! I feel so blessed to have found this group of friends on campus. And I'm going to miss them all while I'm back home for four weeks.

On Friday Laura and I went to volunteering and we worked on the mural. Its coming along pretty well. We're almost finished with the nature scene and then we'll start painting a scene of the volcano Misti thats in the city of Arequipa. After that I got home, ate lunch and made plans with Caitlyn and Dyago to go and see Toy Story 3 in 3D. Would you believe me if I told you that I had never seen a movie in 3D before Friday night? Well believe it. It was a fun time. Then on Saturday Laura and Caitlyn came over to watch the US-Ghana game. Too bad US is out. Oh and update: Argentina beat Mexico 3-1. So sad, I was really rooting for Mexico. So yeah, we watched the game then went to a café in Barranco for lunch. I got some pretty good (and super expensive) pasta. Then we split churros for dessert. Oh my goodness gracious. Heavenly. With a dish of hot chocolate sauce. Wow. That was the best part. Then we went back to my house to do some homework and Dyago came over and I attempted to help him with his French homework. Attempted being the key word. It's hard to explain French in a mix of Spanish and English. The three languages were getting all jumbled in my head and all coming out at once. Which was making me confused and him even more confused.

On Sunday I just chilled around in my room, chatted with Laura and Caitlyn on Skype and then we decided to have a study party at Caitlyn's house. So thats where I currently am - sitting on Caitlyn's bed as she and Laura study for their lit final that they have in the morning tomorrow. So I'll be here for a while. We will probably end up making the Annie's mac and cheese that my best friend Sarah sent down with me. I'm pretty excited about it.

Me, Amelia and Angie at the last CBU meeting

Amelia, Me, Nora and Gera at Crepes&Waffles

Recently I've been doing some thinking about my relationship with God. I'm trying to learn to lean on Him and depend on Him, to find my worth and joy in Him and Him alone. Here is a song that really sums up all my current thoughts:

Call Me Beautiful

[Ginny Owens]

I've been waiting
For a hero who's brave and strong-
Someone to love me,
Someone to tell me I belong,
So I pretend I'm satisfied,
And I stand watching on the sidelines,
Till You pull me into the light
And say, "It's Your turn now,
Welcome to your life!"

And You call me beautiful,
And say You've loved me all along,
And You've always held the keys to unlock my soul
Oh You call me beautiful

There's a smile on my face,
And a brand new light in my eyes,
It's a new day,
And I've never felt so alive-
I feel as if I could conquer anything,
Oh thats what Your love has done for me,
And now all I want to be,
Is everything You want me to be-

And You call me beautiful,
And say You've loved me all along,
And You've always held the keys
To unlock my soul, But I didn't know-
Now I can finally start to live,
Take those chances I have missed,
Things will be much different,
Now that I know
You call me beautiful

The story is better than I could dream after all,
Now this is reality
To know You and to hear You call me beautiful
Call me beautiful-
Now I can finally start to live,
Take those chances I have missed,
Things will be much different,
Now that I know-
Now that I know
You call me beautiful

Sunday, June 20, 2010

Minkando

I'm back from my trip to Ayacucho this weekend! I had a great time!

So Thursday night we all met up at the bus station and our bus left Lima around 9:30 pm. The seats were really comfortable and they showed the movie The Ugly Truth, but I slept instead of watching the movie. The bus ride started off on a good note when one of our trip coordinators passed out besos de moza (a chocolate covered marshmellow-type thing with a cookie - so sort of like a s'more) to everyone. So I slept for most of the ride. Although I woke up about every hour. We arrived in the city of Huamanga around 8 on Friday morning. From there we got into a van to drive to Vinchos. For any of you that don't know Peru suffered from terrorism for many years and Ayacucho was one of the areas most affected and Vinchos was hit especially hard. We arrived and unloaded the vans, got our t-shirts and did some preparation for the first session. We went around to some of the schools and announced that we would be waiting for the kids at 3 in the Plaza de Armas to do some activities and play! Then we ate lunch and headed out to the plaza to wait for the kids!

our t-shirts

Beba

The kids get split into three different groups - nido (3-5), primaria (6-8), y limbo (9+). I was working with the little kiddos with my friend Yazeirys, Milagros and Rafaella. We didn't have too many kids that actually belonged in nido, but we ended up with about 10 in all. We sang some songs, did crafts and talked about friends and friendship. It was a little hard to keep everyone focused and get the point across but overall it worked out well. We were with the kids for about 2 hours or so. After finishing everything up we just played around with them for a while. Then we moved our mattresses from the closet where they are stored in one building to the place where we were sleeping. After that we had dinner and then a debrief/time of reflection about the day. Then most of the group went for a hike (at 10 pm!) but I chose to go to bed instead.

Saturday we were up around 7. We ate breakfast and quickly prepared materials for the second session. At 9:30 we started our second session with the kids. The theme for Saturday was family and roles within the family. We had all the kids draw a picture of their family and friends then we posted them all on a big piece of paper to make a mural. They really enjoyed doing that. Then we had printed out pictures of different family members and made cards to play memory with them. The older kids that were hanging around our group really liked that game. Our last project was making a card with their handprint to give to someone in their family. Many of the kids said that they were going to give it to their Mom. How sweet.

Brothers walking down to the river

After all the groups had finished we all walked down to the river with the kids. Some of them (and some of us volunteers - not including me) went swimming. It was fun to hang out with them and just have some FUN! After swimming we packed up, cleaned up, returned the mattresses and had lunch. Then we were off! We drove back to Huamanga and arrived around 4:30. We then got a chance to do some exploring! We went to an artisan market and a food market. I bought some pan wawa (typical bread from Ayacucho in the shape of a baby) to bring back to my family. Then we all ate dinner at a pizzeria. The pizza was REALLY GOOD. Still not as good as Mom's. After dinner the coordinators had a "surprise" for us. They took us to this bar type place with some live music. Some of the others and I decided to head to a little café with a view of the plaza instead. Much better choice for me. I really enjoyed getting to know some of the other people on the trip. I found out that one of the girls Irene lives like a block away from me! Small world!

Craig, Rafaella, Me, John and Yazeirys

Our bus left at 9:45ish on Saturday night and we arrived in Lima around 7 am this morning. I got home around 7:45 and had to wake up Alfredo with the door bell because the deadbolt lock was on the door and I couldn't get in! So I felt bad, but I had to do it. Then I slept for another few hours, woke up, had breakfast and took a shower. Then my family arrived (I'm not quite sure where they were) and started preparing for a parrillada (barbecue!) It took Mario a while to light the grill, but after he got it going the whole house smelled delicious!!! And it tasted delicious as well. We didn't end up eating till like 4. Now I'm in my room, updating my blog (obviously) and trying to call home to talk with my family.

So its been a good weekend. Overall I really enjoyed the trip, although there were some frustrating moments. The whole time I just felt like something was missing. And then I realized what it was: sorry to get a little cheesy, wait no, I take back that apology. I'm not going to apologize. Jesus was missing. Plain and simple. The work that Minkando does is great, but the group dynamics and sometimes the leaders were a bit frustrating. I guess I've just had such good examples of what leadership in this type of setting looks like, and I even have experience in leading and I could tell that some things just weren't being done right. If given the opportunity I think I'd go on the trip again, for the kids. And to be an example.

Another thing that I was thinking about this week is my accent in Spanish. Many people say that I speak Spanish very well, which is quite flattering but I never completely believe them. I still stumble over simple words or verb conjugations. And I still have the "gringo" accent sometimes. My friend Milagros assured me that its ok to have an accent. She was like "when I speak in English I have an accent. I can't avoid it." Which got me thinking, of course I'm going to have an accent and thats ok. Why am I so desperate to appear to be something I'm not? Or appear to not be something that I am? I think that deep down inside I'm just longing for acceptance. I want to belong, to fit in. But I'm slowly learning that I can belong and be accepted just as I am. People are teaching me that. Beautiful wonderful people who have let me into their lives. People who are praying for me, people who after knowing me for only a week or two emailed me to wish me a happy birthday, people who are patient with me when I am struggling to get my thoughts across, people who put up with my stubbornness, people who make sure that I make it home safely at night, people who send me colored pictures, people who make time to skype with me, people who laugh with me, people who help me find books in the library, and the list goes on and on. And above all is my Heavenly Father who loves me and accepts me every single day despite my lack of appreciation.

So these are some thoughts that I've come across lately. I can hardly believe that I'll be home in just three weeks! That is craziness! Also, I told my host mom today that I'm going to stay another semester and that I'd like to stay here. She was surprised, but seemed happy about it. Yay!

Happy Father's Day Poppy!

Thanks for your love, guidance and example.

I love you so very much and please know that

I'll always be your Tweety.

Tuesday, June 15, 2010

The oyster crackers are already gone.

So I'm just going to come out with it.

No beating around the bush.

My mother is simply AMAZING and WONDERFUL.

(and just about any other positive adjective you can think of)

And you are probably wondering, what prompted such a sudden burst of affection for my mom?

Well it is mostly influenced by the package that I received in the mail yesterday.

Contents:

-T-shirt from CAL meet

-Band-Aids

-baker's chocolate (so I can make brownies)

-a bag of swedish fish (that may or may not be half-way gone already)

-a package of Spring-themed SillyBandz

-an article from the Salem News explaining the new fad of SillyBandz that is sweeping across the North Shore. (apparently my nephew has about 80)

-socks

-"Footprints" book

-4 bags of oyster crackers (which are already gone. hence the title of this post)

So lets just say that I am one happy camper.

Alright, update time. It seems like its been a while. But I can't quite think of what has been going on. Classes are continuing as usual. Next week is my LAST WEEK OF CLASSES! I am wicked excited about that. Then I just have two finals.

Also the World Cup started. Which is a HUGE deal here in South America. TVs were put up in the cafeterias around campus just in time for the first game. Whenever there is a game there is always a huge crowd of students sitting and watching - sometimes instead of going to class. But if you are one of those good faithful students who does go to class (for example, me) you don't have to worry because you can hear the entire campus cheer whenever a goal is scored. The only tough thing is figuring out which team scored. But yeah, its great. The atmosphere is just really fun. I watched the US-England game at Amelia's house on Saturday. Then - ooh this is exciting news - we made cheesecake, real cheesecake with Philadelphia cream cheese. It was so delicious. There is cheesecake here in Peru, but they don't use cream cheese so it doesn't taste the same at all. The only similarity is its appearance.

This weekend I'm going on a volunteer trip with an NGO called Minkando. We'll be traveling to Ayacucho and working with some kids in a town called Vinchos. I'm pretty excited. I'm working with nido - kids ages 3-5. We have two "workshops" and two "activities" with the kids. I'm the only one from my program going but my friend Yaz from Holy Cross is going as well. So it will be an adventure and I'll be sure to tell you all about it when I get back on Sunday.

Ok, so what else can I share?

Well I'll be home in 3 and a half weeks. Thats pretty cool. I'm really really excited to come home and see my family and friends! But I'm also glad that I'll be coming back to Lima in August. I think I made a good choice to stay for two semesters. I feel like I'm just starting to form relationships and to leave now would be sad. So its good. I'm very content with my life right now.

Thursday, June 3, 2010

little letters.

dear little bugs at machu picchu,

why did you have to bite my legs? i do not appreciate it.

dear skype,

thank you for being so awesome and allowing me to stay in touch with family and friends.

dear gelato place in Plaza San Miguel,

you have such delicious gelato. i’m glad that i have finally figured out that by buying a cone instead of a cup i get more yummy goodness for s/. 0.50 less.

dear cusco,

you are absolutely beautiful.

dear facebook,

while I appreciate all the help keeping in contact with friends and family, i feel we may be spending too much time together.

dear sun,

please come out more in lima, i really do miss you.

dear mom and dad,

i miss you both terribly. you two are amazing and i’ve learned so much from the both of you.

dear micro number 35,

i really wish you had a route that avoided Javier Prado and Aviación. that would save me a LOT of time.

dear deer number 14,

shame on you if you fool me once.

shame on me if you fool me twice.

dear movistar,

please stop sending me all those silly promotional text messages.

i get all excited only to be disappointed.

i did not miss my favorite band nor do i need relationship advice.

dear micro drivers,

please take it easy going over those speed bumps.

dear cobradores,

there is no possible way that i can avanzar. perhaps you should stop letting people get on the micro.

dear supermarkets in lima,

i really don’t think that it is a good idea to sell eggs in a bag. seems to me that they would be easily broken, but what do i know?

dear gordon college,

i miss you a lot more than i thought i would. but this is good because now i really do appreciate everything you’ve done for me.

dear municipalidad de lima,

i would like to kindly inform you that while you hose down the plants and trees with giant firefighter-like hoses at night (watering mostly pavement) there are people living in the city who do not have running water in their house. something just doesn’t seem right with this picture. get on that please.

dear iTunes,

please start offering better free downloads. and put songs back to $ .99 cents. enough with this $1.29 crap.

dear lady that i often see on my micro,

i really hope one day i get up enough guts to actually talk to you because you seem like a really nice person.

dear lolcats,

you never cease to make me laugh.

thanks.

dear professors here in peru,

sorry i’ve been skipping class lately. i’ll try to be a better student.

dear tijuana,

i love you for the beauty that i’ve seen the midst of your brokenness

dear ricky,

i miss you. you are most definitely coming back to peru with me in august.

xoxo

abby